So, I was chatting away to one of my lovely mentors on Friday and we were talking about all things dark, depressing and downright un-fun.
Talking about depression and suicide are not how I recommend anyone starts their weekend.
But, I guess for us, it's a big-ole part of what we do and isn't something we can avoid...
As the conversation wandered into these territories I blurted out something along the lines of 'the reason why the world is such a mess, is because no one takes anxiety seriously - and especially not the NHS'.
There was silence from her end for what felt like an age, but was probably only a few seconds, before she said 'what do you mean'?
& then, we'll I got on my little old soap-box...
You see, when someone has depression and anxiety then the NICE guidelines state you treat the depression.
When someone goes to the GP and say's they're depressed the GP will whizz out his prescription pad and start writing.
& when someone tells their workplace they're depressed they get passed the number for the in-house counsellor (or the via-the-phone counsellor).
But when someone says they're struggling with anxiety then there's a look that passes between them that says something like this 'we all get worried about things, heck even I don't like it when I have to ... but I still manage to function'.
OK, I get it, yes it's about as frustrating as someone who has had a bad day believing that is the same as being depressed... But, there seems to be an acceptance about depression now, after so many high profile celebrities talking about it.
The problem is, that anxiety really is just as bad.
& in my eyes, I kinda think it's worse...
I know, I'll be looking out for your hate mail in the post (or in my inbox...).
Now, I've been super honest since I started this biz 4.5 years ago and have been really open about struggling with both depression and anxiety over my lifetime.
I've even spoken about how things were so bad that I literally gave up on life.
But here's the thing - I genuinely believe anxiety is worse.
Depression is like this constant cloud of nothingness that saps away your ability to feel anything.
Life isn't fun, life isn't anything, it just is.
But when anxiety kicks in - that is unrelenting terror.
Regardless of the reason why it's kicked in, it's the same as waking up to Freddy Cruger appearing in your mattress (like he does in one of the Nightmare on Elm Street films).
& you can't do a damn thing to stop it.
You have got to ride the storm until your body has decided it's enough.
This may be 2 minutes, it may be 20.
It may even follow you around for the whole day and poke you square in the eye as soon as you wake up the next day.
The worst thing is that you know it's irrational, you know you're being stupid and you absolutely know that what you are feeling is not appropriate.
It doesn't matter.
Your body goes bezerk and you are sitting on the sidelines watching it all play out.
When anxiety kicks in (& I mean actual anxiety, not feeling a little wobbly because you have to talk to the guy/gal you have a crush on, I mean your body trying to pump every ounce of your blood around your body at the same time, being unable to catch a breath and having no idea why your body is trying to kill you) - you literally feel like you're dying.
When it kicks in for me I can't work out whether I'm going to faint, vomit, have a heart attack, pass out, throw up, collapse... & all this happens at the same time!
For hours afterwards, the incident plays on repeat in your subconscious triggering the cycle over and over and over.
You can't escape it.
Even though the 'thing' that caused it has long since disappeared.
& even months later when you have forgotten all about that one incident you smell something, hear something, catch something out of the corner of your eye and BOOM you're right back there trapped and dying, for no good reason, all over again...
In fact, most people who are struggling with both depression & anxiety would very probably agree with me.
I'll work with people who've been depressed for years (& I mean 10, 15 20+ years) and when I ask them 'why now' they'll always say, the anxiety has got so bad.
Not the depression.
Thankfully there are things you can do to stop the anxiety being quite so bad.
Self-hypnosis, affirmations, emotional freedom technique (EFT or Tapping), journaling, exercise and guided meditation are great places to start.
But, when you've got the Freddy Cruger type anxiety they'll probably not do much other than hold it at bay for a few hours.
Being able to get rid of anxiety long term enables you to have a long, happy and healthy life.
When you're ready to start living a life full of hope, optimism and joy and finally banish your anxiety for good use the link below to join me for my upcoming free session called 'The SECRET Guide To Conquering Anxiety For Good'where I'll share with you a PROVEN step-by-step plan you can use to overcome anxiety in just 12 weeks.
Have a great day x Katie x
p.s., I'll be back here tomorrow talking about 'mental health first aid' for your business - see you then.